Last Monday on my flight to a client site, I was busy doing some work. A strange thought came in me. What if the pilot announces that due to an engine failure the airplane will crash in about 5 mins. What will I do?
It was a strange thought, first I thought about who I will try to call or text and what message I might leave. Then I thought maybe those few mins are best spend reflecting on how i spent my past 30 or so years. I will probably feel lucky for the opportunities I have had but it will be accompanied by an immense sadness for my failure to use my time and resources to do something meaningful, something less self-oriented.
Is this a feeling of self-pity? Am I being self-oriented while disguising my feeling as selfless? Probably